My house is a disaster. I mean, its bad! Not only are there boxes piled in every room and heaps of various unboxed items scattered around, my house is just plain dirty to boot! Chaos. I think that I have officially given up trying to keep things relatively organized and am just going with survival right now.

So, when things are crazy inside we go outside. Its been rain one day, sun the next; a constant pattern that allows me to pack one day and spend the next outdoors! This has allowed me to keep my sanity. And my husband and children. :)

Even though I have this tendancy to look at circumstances through pessimistic glasses, to take all the bad things that have recently happened and turn them into major events that only superhuman strength could overcome, God has been a constant reminder that He is in control. I am not a spiritual person. I try to be a good Christian, but lets face it- I doubt, I complain, I ask "why?" and I get mad. At life, at myself, at those close to me. But in these past few weeks I have felt the hand of God on me daily. I hear Him say "Autumn, just be quiet. Listen to me. I have a plan." I feel like Sarah in the Bible. She laughed when the angels told Abraham that she would conceive a child and have a son. She laughed! And then because she knew it was impossible and doubted God, she told Abraham to go sleep with her handmaid and have a son by her. Because how could God possibly give Sarah a child in her old age? But He did. Because God has a plan.

So, when both of your vehicles die in the same week, when a tree randomly crashes and knocks out your power lines in the same week, when you are jobless, when you have to sell many of your possessions and say good-bye to your dearest friends, when life just rises up against you and you feel like one more thing will make you crumble, and when you doubt- like Sarah -and come up with a plan of your own, God will show you Himself.

Almost every day in the last two weeks, the Lord has sent someone into my life to witness to or talk about the greatness of God. Yesterday, the man who bought our bed off craigslist gave an amazing testimony of the goodness of God. Once a cocaine addict and satanist, he has been converted to a life given to Christ for nearly 12 years because of the faithful prayers of his wife. A sweet neighbor lady has given testimony to the power of God in the healing of her sister. A friend from church and his wife are expecting a baby in the fall after losing their first child in December, and they give all the praise and glory to Jesus Christ. His will is perfect. And His way is perfect. We cannot control circumstances in our life. But we can choose how we react to them. Will we give glory and honor to God no matter what happens? Or will we doubt and become angry. Its a daily battle. But one that we can have victory over through Jesus!

May the Lord bless your week!